last week's weigh in

154.5! Down 1.1lbs...

I've been a bit of an exercise slacker the past couple of days and will be starting P90X week 6 over again tomorrow. I should be on day 5 tomorrow, but like I said - lazy slacker. My weight is holding steady though, so hopefully if I get back on it tomorrow, I'll see a little loss....

song that's currently stuck in my head

I love love love this song. Have listened to it at least once a day for the last two weeks. 

 

Won't Turn Back

needtobreathe

 

 Lonely like a sailor
Who's left his girl at home
No storm could overtake the love he knows

So tell me why I should run for cover
At the sound of the coming thunder
All I hear is the cry of my lover
So take your shot
I won't turn back

I won't turn back

Faithful like a soldier
Who's answered to the call
Even when his back's against the wall

So tell me why I should run for cover
At the sound of the coming thunder
All I hear is the cry of my lover
Yeah take your shot
I won't turn back

No I won't turn back

weigh in...

155.6 lol.

I was up to 158 on Monday though, so I'll take it. I've already meal planned for today - including a couple drinks at the bowling alley - and I'm within my calorie range. Plus I'm going to work out this afternoon. So maybe I'll maintain through the weekend. Not getting my hopes up to lose weight. That rarely happens on a weekend. But if I can hold steady, I'll be thrilled lol.

Hopefully I'll see 153 next Friday :)

Inspiration

My fabulous sister has lost a ton of weight and looks amazing. And she's still going strong. When she puts her mind to something like weight loss, she does awesome with it.

Me? I'm a crappy dieter. I've been losing weight since corbo was born. Three pregnancies and miscarriages in ther have made it tricky. I was 142 lbs when we got pregnant in January. We lost it a week later - febuary 7 - and between that and my starting full time at work, I gains 5 lbs before I got pregnant again in March. Opps. I then proceeded to gain 12 lbs in the 17wks
I was pregnant with Pepper Lynn.

2 months later, I've lost 3 lbs.

So not ok.

I started p90x in august and I'm almost done with my first month. I am noticing a difference in how my clothes are fitting, so that's great. But I want to lose weight and it's not so easy.

I know what I need to do - track every bite of food and stay within my calorie range. But some days are just bad and I'm a lazy slacker.

So inspired by my sister, I'll be posting my weekly weighins on my blog every friday. Maybe it will help. Certainly can't hurt. I'm thinking about starting a weightloss blog as well and will let everyone know if I do.

Here is last Fridays weight:155lbs.

I will be happy with a lb a week lost. I'm going to stick to the plan, write down everything I eat, continue to exercise, and hopefully that scale will start moving in the right direction (quickly!!)

We'll see how this goes!

double chocolate peanut butter pie recipe

Got this one from food and wine. Not too difficult to make and yummy. Really rich though.

Ingredients

Chocolate Crust

1. 4 ounces semisweet chocolate, chopped (1/2 cup)
2. 1/2 stick unsalted butter, cut into tablespoons
3. 8 ounces chocolate wafer cookies (from a 9-ounce package), finely ground (2 cups)

Peanut Butter Filling

1. 8 ounces cream cheese, softened (1 cup)
2. 1 cup chunky peanut butter
3. 1/2 cup sugar
4. 2 teaspoons pure vanilla extract
5. 1 cup well-chilled heavy cream
6. 3/4 cup salted roasted peanuts, chopped
7. Kosher salt

Chocolate Topping

4 ounces semisweet chocolate, chopped (1/2 cup)
1/2 cup heavy cream 

Directions

1. Preheat the oven to 375°. In a medium glass bowl, combine the chocolate and butter and microwave at high power in 20-second intervals until the chocolate is melted. Stir well, then stir in the cookie crumbs. Press the cookie crumbs over the bottom of a 9-inch springform pan and 1 1/2 inches up the side. Bake the crust for 10 minutes, or until set; the crust will continue to firm up as it cools.
2. In a large bowl, using a handheld electric mixer, beat the cream cheese with the peanut butter, sugar and vanilla extract until blended. In another large bowl, using the same beaters, whip the chilled cream until firm. Fold one-third of the whipped cream into the peanut butter mixture to loosen it, then fold in the remaining whipped cream and 1/2 cup of the chopped peanuts. Spoon the filling into the crust, smoothing the surface. Sprinkle lightly with salt and refrigerate until set, about 3 hours.
3. In a medium glass bowl, combine the chocolate with the heavy cream and microwave at high power in 20-second intervals until the chocolate is melted and the cream is hot. Stir the chocolate topping until blended, then let cool to barely warm, stirring occasionally.
4. Spread the chocolate topping over the peanut butter filling and refrigerate until just firm, about 15 minutes. Sprinkle the remaining 1/4 cup of chopped peanuts around the edge of the pie. Carefully run a thin knife around the pie crust to loosen it, then remove the springform ring. Using a sharp knife, cut the pie into wedges. Run the knife under hot water and dry it between each cut.

Make Ahead

The pie can be covered and refrigerated overnight. Garnish with the chopped peanuts before serving. Serve the pie chilled or slightly cooler than room temperature.

hysterosalpingogram

My HSG (hysterosalpingogram) was today. Basically, they stick a catheter in your cervix, pump your uterus full of dye, and take pictures. It's usually done for women with fertility issues - specifically to make sure the fallopian tubes are clear or that there are no adhesions, etc that could cause issues with implantation. Mine was done to make sure my uterus was shaped normally and there were no adhesions, etc that would cause problems to a growing baby.

 The initial results are good. We'll know for sure in a couple of days.

It was not a comfortable procedure, but wasn't unbearable. I had quite a bit of painful cramping when they put the dye in - that was the worst part to me. The radiologist was amazing. She had had two HSGs done herself and she was very understanding and did everything slowly and gently. I was laughing and joking with her and the tech. A good atmosphere definitely makes a big difference and I'm so glad I had nice people doing my test. 

I'm home now. Feeling ok. I'm crampy, but I expected to be. Just gonna take it easy for the rest of the night. 

I have an appointment with a reproductive endocrinologist next week for a second opinion on everything. I'll update after that.

who do you love?

Tonight I told Corbin: "I love you"
He said "I love someone else"- with a wicked grin on his face.
I asked him who he loved....

And he said....

"I love God and Jesus!"

Love that kid.

philippians 4:12

2I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 

I was having a pity party this evening - well most of this week for that matter. For a number of reason - mostly hormonal - this has been the worst week for me yet. Well the worst since the first week after Pepper was delivered.

Anyway - I have been pouty and fussy and really quite discontent this week. People keep telling me I have the right to be emotional - and they do have a good point. I would definitely agree that it is ok to be sad, to cry, to have a bad day, to be a little angry at times. But my attitude this week has been one of discontent. It's been really bad. It's been wrong. I can absolutely grieve and have bad moments without sinning. But the pity party - the discontent - is way out of line here.

Anyway - in the midst of my pity party, I started thinking about the above verse..."I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances"....

"Well that's all well and good for him. He obviously had it together a lot more than I do. Wish God would tell me how to be content" blah blah blah. On and on went my negative, pouty, discontent self dialogue"

I decided to look up the verse - mostly b/c I was pouty and wanted to rant on my blog.

And then - God knocked me upside the head with the next verse. I have known these verses since I was a kid, but apparently they slipped my mind. Anyway...verse 13 says "I can do everything through him who gives me strength"

And the lightbulb goes off again - b/c I know this already, apparently I just forgot it in the midst of my temper tantrum....The secret to being content is to rely on God. I can do all things through Him, He can give me the strength to be content in my circumstances.

Wish I had remembered this on Monday. My week would have been a lot more pleasant!